This little guy is going to be a joy, I just know it.
But right now, it just seems like every time I turn around there is something wrong with my health.
It's almost like he is taking over my body and he isn't even here yet.
From the first doctor's appointment, it just seems like there is always some "pre-caution" needing to be taken.
I have always had weird health, but it's almost gotten comical with this pregnancy.
The latest?
I'm always sick at this time of year.
Same with poor Robert.
It started with just some stuffiness, the common cold, the sensitive eyes that normally come with all that..
But then it was the lack of sleep, the incredible aches that wouldn't go away..
One night I literally slept from 5:30-6:45 am..
I tried the bath thing, the shower thing, yoga breathing thing.. Nothing was working.
I literally could not sleep.
Every time I laid down, it felt like the baby was in my throat, making breathing extremely hard.
Then of course a slight panic attack would follow, just because all I could think about was my lack of breath.
How can you close your eyes when you can barely breath?
Probably the worst night of my life so far.
And that's not a joke.
I went to the doctor that next day because it was just the straw that broke the camels back.
There was no way that I would allow myself to have another night like that, and there was something wrong.. I just knew it.
He listened to my breathing, told me to get some Tylenol PM (best thing ever), suggested some over the counter medicine for the coughing and stuffiness..
And then handed me a paper telling me when I needed to show up at the hospital for my heart exam.
I have never had heart problems, but of course, this is just another one of the "pre-cautions"..
And as much as I love precautions, I am sort of getting sick of them.
They just make so that you wonder if its a precaution you should be worried about, or one that you should just not think about, but you can't stop thinking about them just because they are usually serious things...
Precaution is a terrible word.
Especially when paired with heart murmur.
So yes, I love this baby more than life itself and I don't even know him yet..
But this pregnancy is making for quite the adventure to get him here.
It's almost like this terrible guessing game every time I go to the Doctor...
What will it be this time?
I even get slightly panicked every time I see their number come up on my phone.
So please start crossing your fingers for us because I still have 3 months to go..
And 3 months could be a terribly long time if anything else goes wrong.
I honestly hope we have reached our quota.
2 comments:
Don't worry everything will be fine. When I was pregnant with the twins, I had heart palpitations. I had to have one of those heart monitors for 24 hours. I had to have a ultrasound on my heart and a lot of other things. Everything turned out to be fine, but they have to go through the process to make sure you and the baby are okay. I wish I had known about the Tylenol PM when I was pregnant because I didn't sleep at all for the last 3 months. Hope everything gets better. Sorry this is such a long comment.
I hope you feel better soon! Ugh, I so hear you on the not sleeping thing. I was a total insomniac for at least the 3 months both times. I literally went to bed at 5 AM every single day. It was fine with Emma because at that point I wasn't working or in school or anything. But with Hyrum, I had an almost 2 year old to keep track of. Let's just say Emma watched a lot of movies those last 3 months...while I dozed on the couch!
I will definitely have to try Tylenol PM next time; the idea of having 2 kids running around like crazy without real supervision is terrifying! That, and I am an absolute grump when I don't get sleep.
Post a Comment