Patience

Patience [Pey - shuhns]

- an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay:

- quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence:

 

Rob knows this word as being my favorite, and of course, we both mean that in the most sarcastic of ways. This seems to be an incredibly difficult concept, and I would like to assume it is difficult for most people, and not just myself. I try and think patiently, I try and act patiently, but there are days when that whole patience concept is just too difficult to understand. "When confronted with delay" is when it comes on the strongest. For some reason I get it in my head that there are deadlines, and yes, there are. There are lots of deadlines in life, and I am incredible at meeting them. I can be on time, I can go the extra mile, I have all of that down pat, except the part where things might change. Except the part where some plans dont work out, or some deadlines cannot be met and there is nothing I can do about that. It doesnt matter how silly, how stupid, how unimportant the deadline is, it gets to me. It gets to me badly. I like my organization, I like my lists, I dont do well with complications, and I do not do well when there are things out of my control. Control freak? I think that phrase is a little ridiculous and Im not at the point where I can admit to that one, but I certainly like things going smoothly and I certainly like things going according to plan. 

 

You might be thinking I am in for a big eye opener because life certainly never goes to plan, and I understand that. I get that I have to be flexible and I have to be willing to nudge a little. I really do get that. Its just that I like to know whats happening and I like to have a plan, regardless if that plan follows through or not, there still has to be one. 

 

Patience. I just have to be patient with whatever is thrown at me, knowing that it will work out, just most likely not the way I want it to. Regardless, things will always work out, tasks will always get done, there just are different ways of doing things. Patience takes effort, it takes work, it takes humility, and I can already see its a long road of learning ahead. Learning is good. I will just keep telling myself that learning is good.