He Is Only Just A Baby

My baby is almost 6 months old, and these 6 months have taught me more than I ever thought they would.

Sure, I knew I would start to speak in baby frequently, sometimes even having to remind myself that adults can actually speak for themselves without my encouraging smiles.

I also knew that I would become the expert diaper changer, the expert cuddler, the expert do-everything-in-lightning-speed-because-he-might-not-be-napping-long kind of person..

Whoever said babies just sleep needs to get a clue.

These were all expected, anticipated even..

This is most likely the only time in my life in which makeup is not part of the daily routine, where real clothes are for Sundays, and its ok if there is a ponytail in your hair every once in awhile....

This is the one time where I am not the main focus, and yet, I feel more secure in my own skin than I have in my entire life.

I dont know if it is the fact that you have someone wanting you and smiling at your every move, or if it is the fact that I really am the wise one in the situation since I have more years on him...

But lately, while cuddling him to sleep, I keep singing this song.

And every time, every single time, it ends in me crying.

If it gets him to sleep or not is not even the point.

The point is that this little boy has taught me the simplicity of life.

This little boy has taught me to love myself, to be happy with myself...

The things that I used to find self-worth in are completely non-existent...

He has taught me to rejoice in the small victories that everyone seems to overlook.

He has taught me to open my eyes, wider than they have ever been in my entirely life.

And he is only a baby.

"Remember you are greatest, when you walk with God.

When his light is in your eyes, you are truly found.

You don't have to find your beauty, in the eyes of man..

You are devine within.

You were sent here to become like him."

I used to care so much about what other people thought of me, and though I am not about to say that I am completely exempt from feeling self-conscious, I will say that having him makes it all seem so silly.

He is making life make so much more sense.

And he is only just a baby.