I Am Ready To Add To Our Eternal Family

We got this application for our phones that takes the coolest pictures. 

Robert is feeling extremely artistic with it - and I can't blame him.. Maybe photography is in his future?

Well.. I figured I should sit and write something before my mind got so completely clouded over that I couldn't form sentences.. 

I had decided a month ago that I desperately wanted to know when this baby was coming so then I had an exact date to prepare for. 

Then I could just make sure everything was done on time because I knew the exact moment.. 

But now that I know the exact moment, I wish it were a surprise. 

Do you see how annoying we people can be?

Now that I know, I have this rushed pressure hanging over my head, making sure that my house and brain are completely ready.

I feel like this is how it would be if we knew when Christ was coming.

It would be this mad rush to make sure everything is prepared.

A couple nights ago I was taking a bath. 

We had just gotten our February ensign and so I decided to read an article or two while I soaked.

I read one on missionary work, one on forgiveness, and then started into one on being prepared.

That last one was the one that hit me. 

Not because it was things I was just learning, but because it calmed all my fears at that moment... and even some fears that are creeping in right now. 

The whole message was that we have to start early with Children, just like our parents had to start early with us. 

It was also about the importance of preparedness and constantly having the Holy Ghost with us because you can never know when it would come in handy.

I don't know why, but it just calmed me.

I didn't even get through the entire article actually.. but what I did get through was extremely insightful.

So here I am, trying to prepare my house for this baby... 

Here I am trying to get my house ready for this spiritual being, this beautiful child.. 

I keep thinking of everything that needs to be done, people I need to call, bills that should be paid... 

For a moment this morning, well, for many moments this morning, I had just felt like I wasn't prepared.. Like even the thought of being completely prepared was too overwhelming.

But now, sitting here, writing you, thinking about that article.. 

I am as prepared as prepared gets. 

I had two wonderful parents who raised me. 

I have a Mother whose spirit is golden, who knows that the Savior lives, and therefore I could never question that fact because I trust her with my life.

I have a Father who teaches nothing but the importance of hard work, and it shows in how he has led his life. He has also taught me what it means to be cherished and loved, all because he cherishes and loves my Mom so deeply.

I have wonderful Grandparents who have always been there for me, and whose lives have been such an example.

Robert comes from an incredible family too, with great examples before him and a solid testimony of the gospel.

We may fail at times, but we have picked ourselves up numerous times, and we try every day to do our absolute best.

We are so ready for this.

In fact, everything in life so far has been preparing us for this moment. 

We are ready for the growth.

We are almost impatient for it because we are just ready for this next chapter to begin.

And I don't think there has ever been a moment before this one where I have really felt the power behind eternal families.

Sure, there was an extreme awakening in the Temple when my family was sealed together.

The spirit there was tremendous and seeing my whole family in the temple was incredible.. 

But this is a child of my own.

This is my personal eternal family that I am creating, so the meaning of the temple seems to be sinking even deeper.

This is where life begins. 

And my mood right now is nothing but grateful.

This has been such a roller-coaster the past 9 months, and we have been through so much..

I am just ready for the next step, as much as I didn't think I was 9 months ago.

I am ready to meet this little guy, and to hold him, and to just see what color his hair is! 

I am just impatient.. because I am prepared and I am ready.

Sleepless nights, bags under my eyes, spit-up on my clothes.. whatever you want to define motherhood as.. I am ready for it.

I am ready to start raising this Child of God.

I am ready to add to our eternal family.