This is Real

I love weddings. I have loved the entire experience when looking from a distance. I love the temple, I love the blessings that the temple brings, and I love the idea that you could be with the love of your life for all of eternity. I always imagined that if it was the right person, that length would sometimes not seem long enough. I love the party, and the celebrations that come. I just love that family gathers and everyone gets so excited for the couple starting on their journey together. Friends come to support the couple, everyone dances, the wedding food and cake that are so well known. I just love weddings.

Well, now its my turn. I am not watching from a distance. I am the one who is being celebrated and everything I thought I would feel in this moment has been completely magnified. I knew I would be excited, I just didn't know it would be like this. I knew I would be in love and googly eyed, and somewhat retarded when it came to that, but I honestly didn't know it would be this good. I didn't know it would feel this good. I didn't know I would get emotional possibly every day with just the thought of what is in store for me and all the blessings I will be able to receive. I didn't know I would love weddings this much. I didn't know it would be this comfortable.. this easy.. this wonderful. When picturing my perfect day, when picturing my husband.. I honestly did not know it would be this perfect. I knew Heavenly Father would bless me. I knew He would make sure my eternal companion would be just what I needed. Its just that, in this moment, right here and now, looking forward to that perfect day, I had no idea my life would be perfectly crafted for me. I imagined how things would turn out, and then when I look at how things are coming together, I cannot believe I ever saw it working out differently. He has perfectly crafted my life in a design better than I ever imagined, and yes, this is a great lesson of trust in my Savior. I never imagined supportive family and friends like the ones I have. I never imagined the love and the generosity of those around me and their willingness to help create a seamless event. My mother has far exceeded my expectations, although I should have at least known that part. But most importantly, I had no idea of the power of real affection and adoration. To be in the midst of this makes me incredibly grateful for the choices I have made in life that brought me here. Rob came to me when I least expected him to, and even though I knew my Husband would be everything I needed, I had no idea he would be this good to me. This is real. This is actually my life, something I am experiencing and not just standing on the sidelines for. I am here. I am adored by someone with whom I adore more than I am able to express. I am getting married. I am actually getting married and I am so overwhelmed with joy and appreciation and love and adoration and joy... Let the wedding festivities begin.