This Weight Picture Made Me Cry

I cried when I found this picture on my computer the other day.

And not because I want my baby to be a baby again..

But because of the potential scrapbooker I could be with it.

Silly, I know.

I don't even want to be a scrapbooker.

So I really don't know why a missing picture would get to me the way this one did, especially since there is not a scrapbook sitting on a shelf with a spot ready for when I found this...

That birthing scrapbook that most people have for their children, especially their first child, would have a lot of empty spots, ready and waiting for the pictures to magically appear.

Like the token one with both parents, smiling and looking at their baby with awe.

Or even just the one with the Mother, glowing and looking radiant with her baby in her arms.

That scrapbook, that I really am never going to make, wouldn't have any of it.

But it would have this weight picture.

The token weight picture.

Even my own scrapbook has that picture.

So I started crying.

I honestly never knew this picture existed.

And if there ever were a scrapbook, I would elaborate a page solely for this picture just to prove that I really did have something.

I might not have the parent picture, the mom picture, the mom pictured period...

But I have my weight picture.

I don't really expect you to fully understand my emotional state, because quite frankly, I don't even have it figured out half the time..

But my birthing day was not like most of my friend's birthing days.

We were all too worried about me getting through it all to be honest.

Pictures were the last thing on anyone's mind.

But no one would know that in my scrapbook.

No one would think anything was wrong with that day because I have this weight picture.

So yes, go ahead and make fun of me.

This weight picture made me cry.