I Really Did It

Today I took my last test of my college career and I feel really good about it.

It wont be for another week or so until I find out how I did.. so the suspense is certainly hovering.

But I have a good feeling.

As I was walking home from taking it, I felt super strange.

It is so weird that it is over.

And, I dont know, but the whole no cap and gown thing is really getting to me.

I certainly cannot say that I havent been spoiled though.

Rob got me the wonderful camera lens that has been attached to my hand ever since.

And as if my parents knew exactly when I would be home... 

This beauty was waiting for me.

The projects that will start coming out of me will be endless.. So just be prepared.

Then tonight I got treated to dinner and dessert..

So, seriously, I cannot say that this moment is going unnoticed.

I guess I just have a lot of pent up feelings from my past..

Baggage, if you will.

The whole "no cap and gown" thing stems from so many other decisions that happened in my life surrounding my education.

Obviously we all make our own decisions, but there are certain decisions that I wish I could've made again without the influence of others.

Just when I get discouraged though, I have to be proud of the fact that I have actually finished my degree.

I have never let anything stop me.. Sidesteps, maybe..

But nothing has stopped me.

And then there is the fact that my education allowed me to work for the first part of our marriage so that Rob could go to school full-time without that worry.

And my flexible schedule has also allowed me to take time off for this little slobber man.

So, no.. 

I cannot look back at life and wish I had done certain things differently because who knows what road those decisions might have taken me down.

That road might not have included Rob and the happiness that he brings into my life.

I laugh daily because of that man, even if I am mad at him which is what bugs me the most!

He knows just what to say to make me smile.

And then of course, no Robert would mean no Ross..

 And a life without this little man would certainly be terrible.

So, no..

I really shouldn't regret certain decisions in my life because the smallest change could've meant the biggest loss. 

So I will be proud of my accomplishments regardless.

I got done with school.

Some people in the world cannot say that.

And there were honestly moments I never thought it would happen..

Some people in the world might have given up had they been in my same situations.

So I am super glad I did it.

And honestly Elyse..

A cap and gown are not needed in order to get the recognition you deserve.

The cap and gown is not the actual paper.. 

So I will take a picture with the actual paper and I will be proud, and I will be excited, and I will cheer for myself.. 

Because I did it.

Regardless of what it took to get to this point..

I really did it.